Happy Sunday Everyone! I thought I better sit down today and play catch up on the blog! Trev and I have been so busy lately I feel like all we do is go to work, come home get dinner ready, take our pup for a walk, get ready for bed, then start next day over-we are running errands, trying to keep up on our town home that we put up for sale in July so we have had people coming and looking at it which is so hard but so good! we usually get a text saying they will be here in an hour so trying to pick up things left out and running out the door before they show gets tough at times! just crossing our fingers that it sales...we are both ready to be moved to Logan, Utah or my dream would be San Diego! {keep dreamin huh!} SO its been busy at the Larsen Home, usually on my days off I am running to family events and trying to get lunch made and the husband off to work! Busy! and we don't even have kiddos yet! I look up to my sister, sister in law, and brother! they are constantly running like crazy and getting there kids to activities all the time! along with my mother and dad...I always wonder do they ever stop and take a breath? they go, go, go! I always ask if I can have some of my moms energy, I swear her and my dad never stop working, helping, etc.! they both need to retire and move to a beach house and relax! They deserve it! and I look up to them everyday and the handworkers that they are they have taught there kids the best!
Anyways! to go on with our story of our journey- I ended with talking about going in and having a procedure done that was called HSG, from then on we were told to come in and have follicle checks every month 13 days after my periods so monthly we went in had ultrasounds and there were days I would leave the office trying to hold in my tears until I would get out to our car...there were some days that were positive answers and some days that were negative answers...the meaning of the negative is basically I wouldn't have a good enough follicle to move forward with going onto the next step and process which is called an IUI it was frustrating to me as to {WHY} can't something just go right! I honestly would lay on that table while Trev was beside me while they were getting ready to do the ultrasound I always said a little prayer in my head {silly} I don't think praying is silly because when you are on your way to breaking down and need answers God is the answer... he is there even when life feels like he's not...its truly all about faith.
For anyone questioning the definition of IUI:
IUI is a fertility treatment that uses a catheter to place a number of washed sperm directly into the uterus. The {goal} of IUI is to increase the number of sperm that reach the fallopian tubes and subsequently increase the chance of fertilization.
TMI?! well this is what this blog is about, this is what husband and wife go through-the struggle of procedure after procedure, negative answers, to positive answers to the positive answers basically getting flushed down the drain when the IUI doesn't work after going through it 3 to 4 times, spending money on the procedure and it failing...did I mention Trev and I both work full time, work our butts off, and pay for insurance and non of these procedures are paid for by insurance-because nothing is covered by insurance because its infertility so we have to pay up front the day of the procedure...so if the procedure doesn't work that money just goes down the drain--but we can always say its going for a good cause right!? so basically the process you go in for a follicle check, good enough follicle then the hubby does his sweet duty and turns it in the day of the IUI...they give me a shot in the hip basically to help with the process that makes me ovulate and then in for the IUI we go...Is it painful? some say no its a piece of cake! as in my words its painful especially when they tell you your cervix won't dilate, meaning won't open, basically its easier after you have had a child. So that's a whole other story we will get to in this blog! so yes it is very painful to the point it brings tears to your eyes, then they basically hang you upside down ha more like tip your chair so your legs are in the air and you sit there for about 25 minutes and play the waiting game till your next period...if you start then re schedule for yet another IUI! its so fun!! Not! its frustrating, heart aching, and makes you wonder everyday!
So that is the story for today! I hope you enjoy this blog update! I just wanted to say this blog is not stories to say poor me, poor me, poor us, poor us...this blog is to up lift and help people that want to know more of the processes of what people go through together as husband and wife that can't make there family grow! I have read so many blogs that have seriously made me realize that my husband and I aren't in this alone...there are couples out there that are struggling just like us and I love to be able to talk to them, like I have said before nobody knows how bad all this hurts till you have been through it!
And because you all know I love quotes! I will end todays blog with a few!
Because now and always is the best time to start becoming the persons we would love to be,
a mother and father
Always be patient, the best things are yet to come!
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