I wanted to give updates on last week and information on how the IUI went and what all Trev and I dealt with...this is the first IUI we had done since my surgery-I don't think I mentioned what kind of surgery I went through...I went in on February 14th, 2014 {yes I know, how romantic for Valentines Day} for a surgery for endometriosis -while going through this surgery they got everything cleaned up and also found out that my left ovary had moved clear back to my pelvic bone so during this surgery they moved that back and everything went great...it was an outpatient surgery so I went in and came home same day...on a funny note my after surgery CNA was a girl that Trev had taken out on dates back in the days before I even knew Trev! lol, so here I am no make up, asking where my pup was {Max} and why the Kardashians weren't on TV...{awesome!} lets just say I was fine with my water and ice that I was drinking after surgery and she kept telling me I needed to keep drinking some Apple Juice, well Trev was getting me in the car ready to go home, started driving off and my stomach started just rolling I yelled to Trev I am going to puke!! it was seriously horrible it was one of those you can't hold back, holy shit what do I do moments! Trev yelled open the door! so barely I made it and opened the door but not quite soon enough! puke all over the door and ground, straight APPLE JUICE! I was so out of it I just started bawling and told Trev that chic needs to go back to CNA school I was fine with my water and ice! ha! it was pretty funny now that we look back on the whole situation! I have to thank my husband for putting up with my craziness! Love that man!
So we went in on Friday last week for a follicle check and on a positive note I had 2 awesome, perfect follicles on my left ovary! which I never had any follicles on my left ovary before I had that surgery! so I was really happy to hear that! So they wanted to go ahead and do the IUI same day...we went to the pharmacy and picked up my shot that I have to have that helps make you ovulate that insurance won't cover so our total for that was $110.00 yes basically money we don't have to just throw out but I will do anything I can and pay whatever I have to for this angel baby...so we went back to the Dr's office to have the shot given to me and found out the sperm washer that does her thing with Trevs sperm was out of the office till late Friday night she was in Phoenix and they only have one lady that does that in the office, so we had to wait and have IUI done Saturday morning at 8:00 am...so we went in and the office was closed so it was just Trev and I, and the lady that washes sperm and Ken who does the IUI's...can I just say I have so much respect for the people out of my Dr's office-they are amazing! and I am so thankful each day I can walk in that office and how truthful and caring they are to Trev and I, we appreciate all they have helped us with. Lets just say the IUI wasn't pretty and was so painful I have never bawled my eyes out of pain, swore, told them to stop, or cried to Trev and told him I can't do it anymore, I can't, I give up. They had to dilate my cervix and with having such a tight cervix that is what causes so much pain...they have struggled with this every time we have gone in for an IUI and until I have a baby my cervix will always be this way...I was a complete mess and so upset I couldn't stop crying-my poor husband as he just sits there and can't do a thing besides stand there and let me almost break his fingers by squeezing so hard...they got the whole thing done not sure if it will work again or not because they could barely get the catheter in...but we will see, all we can do is keep praying to the man above and have faith.
I have seriously learned that I just need to accept that things are going to be hard in my life-I told Trev I have the worst luck when it comes down to anything it always makes me think {HOW} how can someone try to be positive when going through all this and nothing works...I have learned that Heavenly Father can see I am a strong woman that can honestly conquor hard things in life! I have so much faith, I don't give up in life...I will say that I give up but then I am back on the internet googling other options in life as to what we can do if something doesn't work! I believe with all I have Trev and I will have this sweet angel in our lives someday, and we will give this babe so much love and all the love that it deserves! I know Trev will be an amazing father he loves kids, he has such an amazing heart of gold and will show his kids everyday how much they mean to him by teaching them, helping them learn, talking to them about sports, whats right from wrong...along with me showing my children everything I have been taught by my momma and dad...I was raised by the most amazing, hard working, loving parents ever- I have been taught so much growing up and still to this day I love learning more and more from my parents. I am so thankful for having my mom and dad always by my side, someone I can cry to or laugh to! I took a picture of the day I went through the IUI when they had me hanging upside down for 20 minutes to show how hard things can be at times-tears can be really ugly especially when it makes your make up a mess! a girl deserves a Starbucks after going through that mess! Below is the picture, along with the day I came home from my surgery in February, my pup was really concerned about me-makes me smile seeing that picture! I have also attached a link to Carrie Underwoods new song, my favorite part of the song says "just a little faith and it'll all get better" "Couldn't fight back my tears so I fell on my knees saying God if you're there come and rescue me" These words are honestly how I have felt lately;
{having faith}
{praying, please help us}
Thanks for reading todays blog! -XO!
